'baby.. i can explain!'

Uhm. It's back. Yey. Um. I forgot to bring the beers but it's okay right, as long as we got each other?




So. Some of you might know that my blog went on readers-only mode yesterday. And I'm sure you all also know that most of you all are not invited to read this blog. And some of you made sure your voice was heard about this change. I know all of that. The two earlier sentences were something I planned to do. The last one was definitely not something I planned to do.

First of all, I'm sorry if anybody got a wrong impression which I'm sure most of you did. It wasn't really something... meaningful? I did it because I did. There wasn't any ulterior motive, no mystery to solve here, no conspiracy or anything like that. haha. It's one of those dumb things I do just for the heck of it. In fact, when blogger asked me to invite any readers, I invited myself only! haha. So that shows how much I've thought of it through. Which is not a lot. Which is zero. I was trying to figure out how to do the readers-only mode so I was fiddling with the settings. I turned it on but later, I can still view my blog. Stupid old me, obviously I can see it, I'm the bloody author! But that concept still didn't sink in at that time so I just leave it at that, thinking nothing's changed.

The only time I actually knew it was working is when Mijah messaged me. And I was like, YES! IT WORKS! And then, I happily went on with my ways, thinking I can play around with the layout now since nobody is going to see it la dee dah. As you can see, the layout hasn't changed because... I turned off the readers-only setting and didn't have time to change anything I wanted.


I started to get people messaging and asking me about it... At first, I was jokey about it because I didn't think it was a big deal or anything... And then, I found out some people are really irritated by it, to the point of being terasa. Um, I really don't know how to react to that, really. As I've said before, it wasn't meant to be anything! It wasn't me saying that I don't want you poking in my life or me trying to be secretive and all that or you're not my friend so buzz off. It wasn't... anythinglah. It was just an experiment.

So, I hope that clear things up. As you can see, my blog is back to its humdrum ways. And another thing is that since there isn't really any interesting things going in my life, I figured a couple of days shutting it down wouldn't hurt. Um.. yeah, maybe I should give a heads up next time...


Ok, here goes nothing:

Heads Up Number One: I am going to shut this blog for good. And I will start a new one. One that is less personal, I guess. And less history. If I can pull that off, that is. I think I've mentioned before that my blog is personal and it used to be just a place for me to vent and my friends to read of my vents. haha! If you read back all the old posts, there are a lot of inside jokes and friendship secrets scattered around. This is obviously not the case anymore. My friends are still reading but there are also other people who I don't know and who obviously don't know me reading my blog and making all sorts of ideas about me. I am really not into that. I hate it when people judge me especially from my blog, for god's sakes because my blog posts don't define me. Like, duh! And I don't like the idea that people walking about reading my past history and thinking just because they read something of me, they think they know me. You get me? I don't know why people bother talking about me at all because I think I am really REALLY boring person. haha. It's bizarre. Maybe you think I'm exaggerating but it's not really. I am just a personal and a secretive person. That is all.

Heads Up Number Two: I am temperamental. Not as in, one minute, I'm jumping off the walls and the next I'm waving a knife. ahhaa. No. As in, I tend to do things JUST BECAUSE. haha. Experiment or try something. And let other people discover it instead of telling them. It's sort of my way of trying something new. I remember when I changed my number at one time and didn't bother telling my friends for days! Then, later on, I did and even then it was just close friends. Then, I started to message to everyone else. haha. When I try something new, I don't really invest much thought of it because I would chicken out in the end or give up. It's how I function really. I have this disease called Acute Overthinking. haha. I think too much so when I wanna do something, I'll do it now or never. I think this is why I am currently jobless. haha.

Heads Up Number Three: Seriously, guys? It's just a blog. haha. Chill, people! This blog does not define how I feel about you, ok? So, um, don't go talking about love, friendship and trust now. haha. Seriously, it was nothing!



So, that's the explanation really. I'm really sorry about that. So, here you go for your viewing pleasure.


-- I want to play this on the guitar, too! :D