This is Yuna and this song is titled 'Blue Sands'. I love this song. I would definitely buy her CD or EP if I knew how. Can anybody tell me how?



Have you ever loved and hated the same person at the same time? You loved him for everything. But you hated him for some things. You don't know whether you should be thankful that he's in your life or you should hate him - accuse him - for all those things, all those small things. You don't know whether to love him and take him by the hand and tell him 'thank you, thank you, yes, yes, i love you too'. You don't know whether to tell him that he screwed you up, that you deserved better than this, anything but this, why did you do this, nothing can repent this, nothing.

I don't hate you anymore for the way you remind me of the person I cannot be, for the things I cannot have.

I never realized that I haven't fully forgiven you. It's odd. I wanted to but somehow, it's like, I forgot. In a rush to move forward, to erase, to start again, I forgot about this small little part. This small little bruise. And at the oddest moments, the memory lives again. And I never think, why do I always go back to this? I never stop to wonder, why do I keep coming back to this small 'insignificant' bruise? Now, I know why. And I know now, too, that you know. That you can see it in my eyes, hear it in my voice, sense it in my disdain and disgust. It wasn't meant for you - all the hate - but it did came from you. But it wasn't meant for you - you know that I love you right? It is too easy to take these things for granted.

I am forgiving you now. This is something overdue. And also something that I have to keep reminding myself. Forgive. Forgive. Forgive. And at the same, I must forgive myself too. For all the small things. I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry - will this ever stop? Only time will tell.



You were the small bruise I overlooked.



Not anymore.

I am sorry.



-- Oh blue sands, will I ever get to marry my handsome friend? haha.