so what if the guys i ever liked are the ones that i couldn't have?

bestfriends. cousins. somebody else's boyfriends. german exchange students.

maybe when it comes to love or lurve, logic or rational thinking is out of the window. maybe, we should just pursue regardless if the odds are not on our side. maybe i shouldn't think or care about the horrible consequences. the drama that will unfold at each event. maybe all i should think about is myself and that one moment where i would feel like i'm flying. maybe i shouldn't put too much faith in a person. maybe i shouldn't have high expectations. maybe i should just pursue.

maybe maybe maybe.

i think people these days have confused love with attention.
all we really want is attention, isn't it?
the opposite sex's fullest attention. like we are the reason they lived for. we are their oxygen and life support.
attention.

i don't want to confuse attention with love.

but i don't know what we are.

i can't find a reason not to pursue this.