This post has been edited. Because apology accepted. Or I gave in. Either which, the original post has been deleted. And for those who didn't read it, I don't think I'll make a recap. The song of the lyrics I posted is nice though. 'Dumb Girl' by Lucy Woodward. Nice song, honest. Hmmm... it seems that there's nothing much to say.

I've read Nick Hornby's 'High Fidelity' and there's this one thing that I really liked about the book. For one, the character in the book always have a song of the moment. You know, songs for wet Sunday morning, songs to ignore, songs for break-ups and make-ups, stuff like that. I do that, actually. I mean, I can do a whole soundtrack for my life. I think it's nice. It's like when you feel all lonely and crap, maybe the song 'All By Myself' will start in the background. Like in the movies. I wish life is a movie. Where you have soundtracks and stuff.

I don't feel like myself much right now.

Why did I come up a whole paragraph for that? Well, right now, there's no song to fill up my background. As in - something happened and usually I turned myself to songs but there's just... nothing. No song that says perfect for the moment. So I end up listening to irrelevant songs like 'Silk' by Butterfingers or 'Drop It Like It's Hot' by Snoop Dogg. Dewa's 'Pupus' is too melodramatic for this. So.. what? I'm listening to 'Bye, Bye, Bye' by N*Sync. Wrong song. Wrong song.

I feel indifferent. Like just-shrug-it-off attitude. It's not like I didn't expect it to happen anyways, right? So, whatever he does now is just... fun-filled flirty stuff but nothing more. I don't believe in the 'more'. Now, I prefer other people's company. At least I don't have doubts about their actions.

-- soundtracks for a life?