i'm the dictator on THIS ship

I am running on water.
Because I've spent all my blood and now I'm running on water.
I want to drink 100 PLUS. So, sugar can run through my veins and refresh me.
But I'm just too full.

Right. Today is one of the most hectic days in my life. The most hectic day for this year's chinese new year, me thinks. Oyh, I am surprised that I haven't flopped dead yet. I am surprised that I still have a scrap of energy enough to blog about today. I can't believe I haven't collapsed on my bed yet and wake up in tomorrow's afternoon. I - am - wonderwoman!

The day began at 7.30 a.m. where my phone alarm went off.
Pressed the snooze button. Went back to sleep.
7.39 a.m. where my phone alarm went off again.
Pressed the snooze button. Went to sleep again.
7.48 a.m. where my phone alarm went off again.
Pressed the snooze button. Went to sleep again.
7.57 a.m. where my phone alarm went off again.
Turned it off for real this time.

8.15 a.m.
Oh shoot. Supposed to set off to KLCC in another 15 minutes. Darn.

9.15 a.m.
Diana?? I panicked on the phone, how far are you from KLCC??
Another one more stop, she said.
NO WAY, I deadpanned, I just got out of the house!!

9.35 a.m.
Waited at Dome. Or how I pronounced it - Dough-May. For some reason, I was actually earlier than them. What the hell, right? Waited. Waited. Waited. Saw reflection on KLCC's glass doors. I was short. And fat. Great. Just the thing to start the day with, self-consciousness. I thought that maybe I should've borrowed my sister's high heels but I'm so not used to wearing high heels. And we'll be in the park, won't we? High heels on grass = bad idea.

9.38 a.m.
WHERE THE HELL ARE THEY???

9.40 a.m.
It's like dejavuness. Everyone found each other at the same time. Saw my classmates coming in droves from the escalator. God, this is so like some sekolah rombongan. Minus an uptight school teacher. That equals awesome. Teachers are such party poopers anyways. Besides, WE'RE SENIORS NOW. LIKE HELL WE NEED TEACHERS FOR??

Went to the park.
And then, my brain went blank.
Everyone was just walking around or standing in a group or just doing nothing.
I feel like I should do something.
Aren't I the senior-page-person?
Aren't I the class 'kira official lah jugak' photographer?
The graphic designer?
The person who heads all these photography sessions?
But I don't know what we're doing. Or what I'm doing.
I should do something!!, my brain said.

Diana and Miza ditched me. Diana and Miza ditched me. Diana and Miza ditched me. Diana wished me good luck. I think she too think I'm supposed to do something.
Wilson, I whined, what're we doing??
I don't know, take pictureslah, he said.
Ok... Can you round up the guys for a group picture? I whined back.
But some guys are not here yet, he said.
Hey Atikah!! Take our pictures please, somebody smiled at me.
You just pick the place and tell us what to do lah. We'll do whatever you say, a classmate of mine said... or something in that effect.

And that's when I realised that we're not gonna do anything unless I told them to.
Then, I morphed into BITCH-Atikah.

I was going, OK EVERYONE. HEAD TO THAT BUKIT. YES. GO. NOW. THAT BUKIT. CMON, GIRLS.
and
YOU! GO OVER THERE! NOW. NOW NOW NOW NOW. THAT BUKIT! YES. NNNNNNNOOOOWWWWWWWWW!!!
and
WHAT ARE YOU GUYS DOING THERE??? HERE!!!!
and
SIT. THIS IS FOR INDIVIDUAL PICTURES. SIT. SIT! SMILE. LOOK AT ME. GOOD. NEXT!
and
WHO ELSE HAVEN'T DONE THEIR INDIVIDUAL PICTURES? WHO ELSE! DO NOT LEAVE THIS PLACE UNLESS YOU HAVEN'T.
and
CLASS PICTURE. CLASS PICTURE!!!! CLASS PICTURE!!
and
WHERE IS SHU NING?? SHU NING?? SHU NING???

I think some of my classmates are surprised that I could get into this dictator-ish mode. It was worse when we're about to take our final class picture. For one thing, they want a shaded place. It was right at 12 something and the sun was scorching like crazy-ass. Finding a scenic yet shaded place that could fit around 30-folks is kinda hard. And I'm always picky about taking pictures. At first, I wanted to set up the tripod and work it on timer. Then, Diana saw a lone tourist walking down a path close to us.

I heard her say, excuse me? can you please take pictures for us?
Then my brain went blank again.
For starters, I don't know where the hell to park my classmates at.
Two, they're all over the place.
Three, I don't know what the hell to do with them.
Four, there ain't a nice view at that spot.
Five, the mat salleh guy agreed and I still don't know where the hell to park my classmates at and they're all over the place and I don't know what the hell to do with them and there still ain't a nice view at that spot.

Diana just turned to me and said something in the effect, eyh cepatlah! do something!

That's where I went explode-y

OK, EVERYONE, GO OVER THERE NOW. WE'RE GOING TO TAKE A CLASS PICTURE BETWEEN THOSE TREES. CMON, EVERYONE. MOVE OVER THERE! QUICKLY NOW. YES OVER THERE.

Even then, some people we're being kinda slow-ish. The girls rushed over but some of the guys we're still fooling around. Wilson or Nicholas or Mahfuz - ok, I don't remember - even went up to mat salleh guy in the notion that I'm going to take a picture of him with the mat salleh guy. I could just feel my eyes bulge when I mouthed to him, GO OVER THERE DAMMIT, before turning to the tourist, Oh, thanks a lot for doing this for us...

Atikah Jekyll and Atikah Hyde.

Even then, it was a messy pile of 5 Gamma-ians. Too many people running around at the back. Too many people sitting at the front. And the mat salleh guy was just waiting to take our picture. I really went spastic ok!

I screamed, OK, GIRLS AT THE FRONT, BOYS AT THE BACK.
I hollered, SHORT PEOPLE TO THE FRONT. TARUNAN! HON LIN! GO TO THE FRONT!
I yelled, AIMAN! GET OVER THERE! OVER THERE! NOW!

I heard someone said, Oh my god... Atikah... But I didn't care. What if we pissed off the mat salleh dude because we were so slow to take a group picture? I am not surprised if anybody thinks I'm a pushy bitch at the end of the day. If I was Tarunan or Hon Lin, I would slap that girl who publicly said I'm short. I guess no one figured that I could actually be scary and dictator-ish.

And I enjoyed it. I loved being scary and dictator-ish. I loved being the pushy bitch. It's so much fun! Don't mind doing it again. Sorry Tarunan and Hon Lin.

After that, my responsibility ended. After hollering the whole day, I really needed a drink.
Went to have lunch at the food court.
With Miza, Aiman, Diana, and Shafiq.
Do you know that I spent almost 8 bucks on a drink and chicken rice??
So bloody expensive. Soooo not worth it.
Then we went to the hanging bridge at the middle of the two towers!
I never knew that Petronas Twin Towers is so... I don't know what's the term but it really makes go 'Oh really??'.
At first, I freaked because of my fear of heights. But when I got up there, the place was actually quite huge and I wasn't scared anymore. The place is quite nice. Recommend it to people because you could really see the great scenery.

Then the whole day was spent by just walking around.
It was quite fun. Not AMAZINGLY fun. But ya know, a day where I get to know my classmates more. My dad picked me up at about 3 something.
I thought my day has ended...

HELL NO.

Picked up mum from her facial.
Went to Subang Parade.
Bought baby clothes for my mum's friend's new baby.
Bought a football for my cousin's birthday.
Bought FALLOUTBOY CD!!!!!
Bought Brokeback Mountain book for Miza!!!
Ate at Uncle Lim's.
Went to go and see my mum's friend's new baby.
Stayed there for an hour or so.
Then, FINALLY, I went home.

Arrived home at 9. I want to DIE.

-- I'm a bitch, I'm a lover, I'm a child, I'm a mother...