i hate insecurity. why does it exist? why can't we just be super duper confident people? i want to be nine again.

1. Who is your all-time inspiration? My mum. Definitely. I wish I have her strength but I never experienced what she did when she was my age. And thankfully, too. My father for his patience and to love unconditionally. I will never know whether I could repay my father for what he has sacrificed for me.

2. Have you ever like the same guy again and again, not getting over it? Uh... awkward question. haha. Sometimes, you just have to laugh at yourself. The answer is yes. Was yes. But I think I am freeing myself from that self-destructive cycle.

3. Do you believe in true love? I don't know. It's a mixed bag really. One day, I am just waiting for that one guy to walk in my life. The next day, I am the biggest feminist you'll ever meet!

4. Where is the place that you want to go the most? I want to go to a happy ending.

5. If you can have 1 dream to come true, what would it be? To die happy and feel content with what I've done in my life.

6. Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain? Always. Of course, I'm not always upbeat or optimistic but you just have to search for that rainbow. I mean, if you don't, why bother at all?

7. What are you afraid to lose the most now? Life.

8. If you win $1 million, what would you do? The typical answer would be giving to charity right? haha. I don't know. I'll probably won't believe what just happened. Thank god Malaysia tak payah bayar taxes for that!

9. If you meet someone that you love, would you confess to him/her? I'm usually insane when it comes to love. I would probably do it. hahah! Nope, I WILL DO IT. That's the thing about me - I am insane. haha!

10. List out 3 good points of the person who tagged you. Nobody tagged me. I just felt like doing a meme.

11. What are the requirements that you wish from your other half? Oh my god - brilliant question! ONE - I must can talk to him. Not the 'what do you do this morning?' kinda talk. The talk on hours on the phone kinda talk. Most guys I know have no clue what to talk about - BORING. haha. TWO - responsible. Totally. I am sick of handling immature guys. They're tiring. I am not your mother! THREE - not sensitive. Yeah yeah, I know every girl in the world wants a sensitive guy but what I am saying is the type of sensitivity where his emotions are easily influenced by everything. Rational lah in other words. This is really important for me because I am sensitive. I need balance.

12. Which type of person do you hate the most? People who are adamant about one thing and then, they do it too. Hypocrites. I know I can be hypocritical sometimes. haha. But I've met a couple of people who are such obvious hypocrites! And they defend their actions! And also people who uses insecurity as a reason to be a complete bitch to other people. Look, everybody is insecure but it does not give you the right to bring people down just because you feel like crap, ok?

13. What is your ambition? Successful in whatever I do.

14. What makes you a happy person now? I am not entirely sure....

15. What do you think is the most important thing in your life? Faith.

16. Are you a shopaholic or not? Yes, I am. haha. Good thing is I am not that well-endowed in the cash department so at least I don't go completely nuts on stuff!

17. Do you believe in miracles? Yes.

18. If you have a chance. Which part of your character you would like to change? My overthinkingness. Sometimes, even the simplest things can be complicated because I think too much. I just want my brain to shut up.

19. If you have a chance to go back to the past and make a difference, will you? Make a difference... Maybe try to influence Americans to vote for Al Gore instead of Bush? I mean, when you think about it, Iraq might not happen and the world would be so much cleaner what with Al Gore being green and all. hahaha. See, loads of benefits!

20. If you could be a celebrity for a day, who would it be? I think it would be... Paris Hilton? I wonder how it feels like to worth billions. hahah!


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