I LOOK AT THIS PAGE AND I FEEL LIKE BAWLING.
nostalgia hurts sometimes. it hurts because the thought of it never repeating again hurts. the thought that oh god you were my friend see! we used to hang out! now i don't even know you anymore! hurts.
i found out the reason why i get so sad when my friends break up with their long time boyfriends. it's because they're not just their boyfriends. at the end of the day, they are my friends too. but first and foremost, you were her boyfriend. and since now you aren't, i don't know what our relationship is. and it is not strong enough to last. i miss you guys badly. and with breakups, i realize that i might lose you guys forever. you were there. YOU WERE THERE. but now, what are we? who am i? your ex's best friend? just that? something of the past? hmmm. sigh.
nostalgia hurts.
- For those who are curious to see Shahrul AED waaaay back before 'HEY YES, I AM THE HOT ARCHI DUDE YOU GUYS LOVE'. hahah! Shahrul the dork in form 3 to be precise. haha. I miss that guy. I read a paragraph from that page and it said ' I can't wait to take Photography in Uni nanti'. HAH! Girl, that ain't happening lah. You took English and LOVING IT despite everything. I miss my naivety. I was stupid but at least I was the enthusiastic kind of stupid. HAHA. SHIT I REALLY NEED TO STUDY WEH.
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You write on the fact that once they broke up, you realise that perhaps your friendship with the other might not be strong enough to survive right? I probably had the other side of the problem. As in, I was and still am friends with both of them. And whenever hearing both sides of the story, not to say that i feel torn but it was as if i was taking sides getting to know that person just a little bit past that. Cheers babe.
some things change. some things stays the same. and even if you think things won't be okay, it will be. it just wont be the same. but it will be okay. I live by that and I'm staying strong. If this is how you feel, you cannot begin to imagine how I feel. But thanks for taking me back to the past.
ps : if I was still with shahrul, today we turn 3 years and 6 months ;D
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