I am procrastinating. I am in the middle of exam week. Tuesday is having BMW (Basic Methods Research Writing bla bla ok I don't really know!) and I haven't studied hack. The lecturer is pretty useless and ok, to be fair, it's not her forte. But still. When it comes to lecturers or teachers, I am pretty heartless. I believe if you can't teach, either improve or quit.

Anyways. Ugh, this morning got pretty busy with... stuff. Didn't study. Then, after the busy period, got back home and slept all the way till 6! And then cleaned up the house a bit and then dinner with sister. And I still haven't studied anything! GOD. Man, this is a complete contrast from last semester. haha. I think I got influenced by dorm mates. Nah, not blaming on them. I finally found my peace with them. I mean, we weren't raging wars but we weren't really chummying. Until now. I mean, I could just hang out with some of them now. And I even start to befriends the other girls from the other rooms! Sure, there are some of them that I still am not too comfortable with - conversations only on general topic and so polite with each other! You know you're friends when you can kutuk each other and having fun while at it! haha.

So, I'm cool. Not cool as in AWESOME. As in - I am fine. Here's the lowdown on last week:

a) ARAB: Oh wow. I studied like crazy for this one. Because we got a not-so lenient ustaz (USTAZ DAMIEN! haha. nah, you won't get it) so I freaked out. And I just realized that for most of the Art kids, Arab goes into our CGPA. NO WONDERLAH. Shiz. Paying more attention to Arab this time around, for sure. AND GUESS WHAT! I got 30 over 40. Which is an A-. This is from a girl who still can't construct a simple conversation in Arabic without having a brainstorm. BIGGEST ACHIEVEMENT EVER!! Seriously, I was so beyond happy that the feeling of happiness stuck with me for days. In fact, it really gave me a confidence boost about this semester AND THE THOUGHTS ABOUT GRADUATING. Am still uber proud of myself. :D

b) POETRY: Oh ferk. This one is hard to pinpoint. First of all, our lecturer? Oh god, DON'T EVEN GET ME STARTED. The lecturer is one of the reasons I CAN'T WAIT TO FREAKING GRADUATE. There is no way that I could stand that person anymore. One semester is all I can take! Anyway, am a bit scared about it. The first half is ok but... the second half is the essay part. I don't know if I went in depth enough about the characters and all. Oh you know, you have to go beyond the words and find the true meaning yada yada. So yeah, I don't think I went all the way. Hmmm... But I think it's still ok. Won't be freaking fantastic but it's not really ground zero.

c) LINGUISTIC: OH OK. I better be careful talking about this one. I think a bunch of my friends went through moments of meltdown after this paper. Not kidding. As for me, I was... ok. I have no idea why. I just have this feeling it will be ok. It will be bad - I won't kid myself over that - BUT it won't be ground zero lah. I know some of my friends are going to read this and take this like a grenade - haha - but seriously guys? I think it will be ok. For real. I guess I am putting all my faith in my essay. My essay-writing has never let me down yet. I mean, hello, the reason I got an A- in Arab is my essay. (YES I WROTE AN ESSAY ENTIRELY IN ARABIC, AM I COOL OR WHAT?) So yes, my only hope really. To think about it I actually left a whole section empty. 5 marks down the drain. But you know what? I just don't care.

d) IRK: AHHHH. I love this paper. It was so easy. See? I am normally not as confident as this. But seriously? It was. Straightforward and fill in the blanks stuff. I actually smiled when I finished the paper. Took my time and checked the questions again one by one. I wish all papers are like this! YEY. I am hoping on a FULL MARK. It's not impossible. So yes. :D


That's all. I am going to face four more papers soon: BMW, CCT (creative and critical thinking), BTQ ( basic themes of al-quran. yes hello uia :P) and COMPUTER.

I am worried about computer and btq and bmw. SHOULD STUDY NOW.

-- tiada kerusi di gam! miscarriage! HAHAH. sorry, inside joke leh.