missing you

Oh my god. I miss you like a mad person. Like a mad person missing somebody. Madly missing madness. It's like, if I don't talk to you in another minute, I really am gonna go self-combustion. hahah. Where the hell are you goddamit?? I hate this feeling!


Anyway, as everybody know, yesterday, Matrics had started. Adilah has gone. Aiman has gone. My good ol' cousin Kina has gone too. Sigh. Both Adilah and Kina are going to the same place which is Melaka. Aiman, however, is in Kedah. Or Perlis, according to Shafiq. My god, Kedah and Perlis is damn far. I mean, Adilah and Kina can head back home when the holiday or the weekend starts but Aiman? He's staying there till the end of the year! Man. Well, at least this Matrics thing is only for a year, y'know. I met this girl, she's going for the Matrics thingy for two bloody years.

Since my future is still hanging in a balance with a HUGE question mark over it, I can't say I have it better or worse. Hopefully, better. No offence.

I never really thought about Matrics really. I was very sure of myself that I don't want to do it. But you know, some of those people don't have a choice. Though I have the luxury of having the college options, most don't. So, yes, I'm grateful. I think it was because my cousin went for Matrics last time and she convinced me not to. So, Matrics was never an option for me.


I'm gonna really miss Kina. She's quite close to me. She's the only few who's in my age range! haha. I'm good with all the other cousins too but she was the only person I could really relate to when I wanna talk about certain things. Like SPM heebeejeebies etc. The poor girl just got back from NS last March actually. She told me that her 'holiday' is only a month since she's doing Matrics pulak! So kesian. I haven't seen her for awhile and now she's gone once again. Sigh. She got 9 A's that girl so I'm really puzzling how the hell she can't land herself a university. 9 out of 10 is wonderful! But I think it's because she's opting for Medic, ya know? So, somehow her chances are slimmer what with the 13 A's people popping out of nowhere.


Adilah adilah adilah. What's up with the short blog post? I think your friends deserve a better explanation then that, don't you think? Anyway, I'm gonna wish you all the luck in the world for your Matrics since you've decided to do that now. I'm guessing you're gonna read this post when you get back? So, since you're future all decided, pray for me! I have no idea what's going to happen really! I hope that this won't be the last I'm going to hear from you. Wish you all the best for your studies. Study hard! haha. I sound like a dork.


You know, you always miss someone when you know they're just not going to be there. When Aiman was around, I never really bothered to call him up or anything. But now, I feel like calling him up. haha. You just don't know what you have until you lose it, right? Sigh. To tell you the truth, when I think about it, Aiman and me have not that much in common. So, I guess I dread the awkward silence. Anyway, I've known Aiman for a long time and he had changed so much from that ten year old boy I once knew. Hmm. He's pretty romantic, you know. ahha. I won't be surprised if he gets a girlfriend in Matrics! Woo hoo! I wonder if he's gonna come back with a Kedah slang or something. haha.

Oh well. At one point, everybody is gonna lose somebody, right? Sigh.

Hey, let's make a promise to meet up for Raya ok? I know that during Raya, everybody must've at least a few days of holiday right?? WE MUST MEET UP. See that in 5 months, how people have changed. Would Aiman sound like a permanent resident in Kedah? Would Farisa succumb to rempitism? Would I become an ustazah at the end? Hahah! Don't know!

HERE'S A TOAST TO 6 MONTHS LATER!

-- Make me a promise!