I am not ready for spm.
Not ready.
So not ready.
I am not even psyched about it.
I don't even think about it.
And I don't even know why.
My addmaths tuition teacher said that
the reason I hate addmaths
is I gave up on it
and never looked back

so, did I gave up on my spm?

I am scared with that thought

All I know is I feel like a failure.


-- I wish I am still that girl with her brain intact. Now it just keeps drifting away with stupid hormonal things that ISN'T EVEN IMPORTANT. I wanna be happy. I wanna be happy. I wanna be happy. Somebody make me happy.