Join the Flunk-a-thon!

I'm typing with my left hand - eating. Marvel my ability to type with my left hand only! All those finger-stretching stuff in piano has definitely paid off! Anyway, last Friday, I had finally dropped the bomb to my Physics teacher.

The airconditioner in the office didn't help. I was nervous. Not because of I'm going to do something about my studies but just telling the teacher is freaking me out. She's not exactly 'friendly'. Anyway, observe:

Me: *spotted Pn. Maimah and going in for the kill*
Teacher: *ticking happily on a paper for god-knows-what*
Me: Cikgu...
T: *still ticking happily on a paper for god-knows-what. No respond whatsoever*
Me: Cikgu-cikgu-cikgu-cikgu.. *hoping annoyance will get some respond*
T: *No respond still - happily ticking away with a red pen*
Me: *takes a deep breath* Saya nak drop Physics.

At this point, to my amazement, Pn. Maimah wheeled around and looked at me straight in the eye. She told me to wait for a second as she furiously finished up her work. DUDE. THE MAGIC WORDS ARE IN 'Saya nak drop...'! I mean, first, she didn't even care if I was standing there - the next thing I know, she's finishing up her work for me! Magic words, I'll say. Is it a nightmare when a kid drop your class? Or the fact that there's a lot of process that needs to be done if I gave up a subject?

T: Kelas Form 5 berapa?
Me: Uh... 4 Gamma
T: Lah! Baru Form 4 nak drop-drop kelas?!
Me: Uh...

I'm guessing yes. Because she later told me that it's not her area of expertise and said that I have to go up to meet Pn. Woo and all that. Pn. Woo?? I don't need to know that she isn't an easy woman. I bet my whole savings (which is a lot) that Pn. Woo will tell me what Pn. Maimah said : Just study harder for the damned subject. Well, ok, they would probably use better words but you get what I mean right? If not, I may be transfered to some other class. I shit you not. But it wouldn't make sense, would it? Even though if I dropped Physics, I still have Bio and Chemistry. And Sub-science classes don't learn Biology. And the others don't have Chemistry or they have other subjects I'm not taking. So, wouldn't it still be the same if I dropped Physics? Geez, logic go boom!

I'm not dropping Physics until next year. I guess, this is the end of the dropping-physics-foreva! drama. I'm getting worried with myself - I'm losing faith in almost everything. I haven't hafal-ed the surah I'm suppose to hafal for the Agama exam, I'm failing in Physics, I had quit my BM tuition, I'm not taking Addmaths seriously, I couldn't pay attention in Modmaths, and my Mandarin class is on hiatus. Right.

What is wrong with me!?

-- I'm positive that I'm going to flunk more papers in the May exam. I'm betting it with my savings (which is a lot).