Only Hope

Alright alright! I wanna brag about something. :P Anyways, I know how to play the intro of 'Only Hope' by Mandy Moore! Yeiya! But it's just the first page because it's like the easiest one. Heck even people who never touched a piano before can play it. The second page is.. crap. It's so hard and confusing with all the sharps to look out for! I mean why can't they just write B sharp as in C? Easier! Peh. Ok, bragging ends.

You know, last Sunday, my mom did this open-office in her... office and Tasnim's friend came! This girl, I don't remember her name - yeah bad me - but Gg said it's Najwa so let's just think it's Najwa. What amazes me is that I never thought we will ever see each other again. Ever. I mean just because you sat next to someone in tuition once doesn't mean you're gonna meet her again right? It's like fate or something! Her sister works under my mum so she was there because she's following her sister.

To tell you the truth, I sorta met her before and I dreaded that she will come on that day. No, it's not that my anti-socialness is influencing me or anything. Maybe. But mostly it's because she's not really a talker, if you know what I mean. Her sister - if she can be anymore obvious - was practically urging me to befriend with her. No biggie. But if only she talks more... maybe we can - I don't know be friends easier. I swear, I had spent 30 minutes talking to her and we have nothing in common. Seriously. And nothing that seem to interest her either . Because all she do is smile and laugh and talk a bit. I was talking alright! Like babble babble babble because I can't stand awkward silence.

After that, I couldn't do it anymore. I mean I can't just talk to her all by myself! Need response! More than a smile please! Soon, I made excuses to go get water or teman my sister to the toilet or help my Dad with the computer when he is perfectly fine. But I felt guilty because she really is a nice girl. I mean, she is the type of girl that you can see her niceness in her eyes. You don't have to ask other people. You just know it. So, whatever I do, I came back to her and talk to her some more.

I'm not complaining or anything. It's just that I realise how hard it is for other people to talk to me sometimes when I shut myself out. I mean sometimes people just want to talk to you - not like they think you're out to get you or anything. Nowadays I try not to stereotype people because you always end up surprised. So, hey maybe Najwa is a cool chick underneath that shy smile. I don't know.

-- I asked Najwa about her school three times. About the same thing. That shows that I had completely ran out of topic to say.