melting candles

Today is my mother's birthday.

So, I called her at 12 am and wished her from Nilai. I already cashed out a hundred bucks for her new and expensive yet way boring Scholl shoes. Went home from Nilai so we can celebrate her birthday with a great dinner.

Then, unexpected visit from our relatives in Johor. Okay, fine. No biggie. Maybe we can rope them in for the dinner.

Then, another unexpected something happened.



My aunt just had a stroke.

Right now, she's in HUKM.

There is this sick feeling of deja vu. A very very sick feeling of deja vu. After I found out and calmed down, I have this surrendered feeling. Will life only come to this? It's like again and again and again... I know, I'm rambling and I bet most people don't even understand what I am on about. Maybe my cousins will understand - we went through tough times this year. Argh, I am so frustrated. Right now, my parents are at the said hospital. I hope my aunt will get better. Her daughter's wedding is in May next year. I don't really know the condition of this type of illness but I really really hope she gets better.

I am not blaming this moment to anyone, not even God. It's ridiculous - who would want this to happen? But I really really wished that it didn't happen on my mother's birthday. It's just... I think she is already having a rough year. 2007 will always remind me of hospital visits... and death. I don't think I want to elaborate more on this.

Sometimes I wish I can single-handedly make my parents happy. Really happy. The type of happiness that you want to go back and experience all over again just because of that moment. But I am not sure I can as life always has its twists and turns.

Oh well.


Happy 45th Birthday, Mum. :(


-- Happiness can be so fleeting sometimes.