do not have Denggi.

Hah. I knew it. :) Phew.

Going back to Nilai tomorrow. Mixed feelings. Glad that I am healthy enough to go to classes and get enough education for this semester - not glad that I am going back to Nilai hellhole. Either way, whatever whatever whatever.

This will end.


-- I am listening to Fall Out Boy. FOB will forever remind me of the 6 months break I had after SPM. It will remind me of my then uncomplicated life. When my only worry was that I had nothing to do. When everything was so bright and new and optimistic and... everything. Listening to FOB will forever remind me of Azfar and Adilah - when my life revolved around theirs and in a matter of months, it stopped altogether. It happened so quickly and ended so abruptly. I wonder if we will ever have the same friendship as we did. Possibly not. It reminds me of Naz, when things weren't complicated and he was just my UIA guy - who tells me about how fun UIA is going to be - and a friend of Adilah. It reminds me of that great trip to KLCC and Azfar's brother's wedding. It reminds me of baking - haha - baking a cake for Azfar and those dozens and dozens of cupcakes which no one ate. And it reminds me of being hopeful. That all I ever needed was to eat, sleep and live for the next day. None of these ambitious streaks and calculated moves. No politics. No sacrifices and compensations. Life was simpler. Friends were genuine friends - not just people I happen to hang out with. I miss all these things. I miss you. I really really miss you.