pms is such a killjoy

I am having an out-of-body moment.

I don't really know what's an out-of-body moment but my take is that you feel very weird.

That line would've been funny to me if I wasn't on pms.

Anyway, why am I having an OOB moment? Well, firstly, I just got back from Vietnam so OOB always happens post-holiday actually. You know, you soaked up the sun, the fun, the new people you've met along the way, so when you go back to the normal routine, everything doesn't feel the same. You feel like a new person but not really. Just few extra bits and pieces. When things like these happen, usually I go for things that make me grounded.

Which are my best friends.

Whom most I haven't talked to almost a week now. Including today.

You know, whenever I go out of town or whatever you call it, when I come back, I always check their blogs. And they're always always not updated! APA NIH. haha. So, after I got back from Vietnam, I checked their blogs and lo and behold, nothing happened. Which is obviously not true. I think. I mean, takkanlah nothing happened for the last five days? Am I right? So, I went on Messenger and for some weird reason, almost all of them are not online. So, in a way, I am feeling... homesick? haha. And I feel even more blah when I opened up my phone and received no messages.

Man, I need my dose of friends! Where are you??

Anyway, I know earlier I mentioned I have MASSIVE NEWS. Well, apparently, most people know about the massive news already. Which is surprising to me. Because well, I knowlah that people talk and all but that MASSIVE NEWS isn't exactly scandalous gossip people share about. So, I always go, how do you know?? Maybe because I was kinda thinking of making an announcement and surprising people and now there's no suprise anymore... Meh! haha. Anyway, I will still do the announcement but laterlah... PMS made me no mood already...

Anyway, the MASSIVE NEWS is also one of the reasons for my OOB. Because well, it's gonna be a whole new start for my life isn't it? I have no idea what's going to happen next. Lots of action is going to happen. Lots of things that I have no clue about is going to happen. It hasn't exactly sunk in yet - the fear - but I'm starting to feel something alright. Everything NEW is happening to me right now. I want some thing old! I want something home!

God, I feel weird!

-- PMS is such a killjoy. I have no control of my emotions whatsoever. It sucks. But it still doesn't make me want to change genders or anything. haha. I also feel that I have fallen out of love. Love is too strong a word. So, what I'm trying to say is, the 'like' is starting to fade away. And 'the reason' is something I have expected. Out of sight, out of mind.