So, someone told me that SPM results will be out on 28th of February.

Ok, that is pretty sick!
For one thing, that date is still in February. That's not fair! Most people get it in March. Early March, I know but still MARCH. Last year it was 13 March. I know this because I regularly read my own article in Gemala from time to time and would glance at the page of picture from that day. haha. Self-love, hunnies. If I don't have a fan, I'll be my own fan. ;D

So. Tonight I have another outing! Boo-freaking-yah! I'm really excited for this one because of... personal reasons... and ALSO because most of the people that are going are the ones I haven't seen for ages! FOR AGES! Azfar would have loved to go but this is the punishment you get for leaving to Dubai on us! Part of me feels excited because I'm gonna meet a bunch of people who are not usually my social circle but part of me feels kinda blergh... But I get to see what's the standard of the VI boys...

Yes, indeed! VI boys will be there since the host of the bbq party is a VI boy himself! Yes, Wawan invited me to his place... which I am not quite sure where... but whatever! So, am being hopeful of hot cute VI boys there... Just for eye-candy, nothing much more than that...

And you know what, who cares? I am a fucking single girl and I can do whatever I want!!

Sorry for the profanity but honestly, sometimes I feel sick of conforming to a rule or to a belief. Like in order to be myself, I have to remain by being myself. Please. That is not growth. I can do whatever I freaking please. It's just that some people or some things that's been said to me before that makes me feel... judged. Or watched. It's up to a point that people actually tell me what they don't like about what I'm doing or what I'm wearing or whatever shit. (I mean, if it's my mum then I guess it's ok BUT NOOO) Leave me be!

I hate it when guys come up to me and say, are you wearing make-up?

(my friends that is. I don't think strangers would dare)

I don't know. I think it's sorta rude. But it's stupid really. Like yeah I am because I am a girl and apparently, girls wear make up. Whoa, that's some new big-ass news. The stupid thing is what I would usually wear is just eyeliner. Yeah, that's it. Ok, usually I make it really obvious but you know, as inexperienced boys are with everything involves the opposite sex, they think I'm wearing tons. But still! It really freaking annoys me like crazy hell. The next time they ask me that I'm just going to ask them did they wear the colour boxers I told them to wear the other day?

Seriously, it's just plain suffocating! Suffocating with a capital S. The only member of the opposite sex that I would probably listen to is if the guy is my boyfriend. Other than that, I'm gonna pretend I'm deaf then.



Hmmmm... there I go. Going partially emo. Argh whatever. Anyway, I'm gonna go and get ready for the PARTAY. Seeya!

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