i am tired

I am going through my spm and I still can find the time to blog? Atikah, you suck. Either way -

4 subjects down, 6 more to go!!!

The subject papers I've done are ok. None of them spell outright FAIL or anything but they weren't exactly easy either. History especially. Since you know, I just started studying for History a month ago. I thought I couldn't be bothered with History... damn, I should've talked with somebody before I decide on that decision for History is the easiest subject to score granted that you study itlah. English is LOVE. Like a breeze in the wind. Does that makes sense? Hhahha. No, it ain't. Modmaths is incredily stupid. Stupid because it's modmaths and it should be EASY but there are some parts that I actually struggled to answer. Damn Bumi!

I am fearing next week. Next week are all the big-ass subjects.

Agama isn't exactly hard but.. I haven't hafal the surah yet. Most people haven't either. But still.

English Lit!! Most people think that English Literature is easy. Not exactly. Lots of reading and understanding subtexts. Most of the time you don't even know what's going on. Slugging through Frankenstein was hard at first but now it's a hell lot easier since you know what's going on every chapter. However, English Lit is one of the HARDEST paper to score? Why?

Oh nothing but the little fact that YOU HAVE TO WRITE 12 ESSAYS - NOT ONE, NOT TWO - BUT TWELVE IN A MATTER OF 2 HOURS AND 30 MINUTES.

Crazy whoop-ass. Usually people write 2 essays in two hours and 30 minutes!! We have to write freaking twelve. Ok, 4 essays are as short as a paragraph while 4 more are one page of A4 paper each. Then 4 more are one and a quarter page each. CAN YOU SPELL CRAZY?

I feel so strung out these days.

I can't wait till I can do things that doesn't

a) damage my future

b) result me in feeling angry and misunderstood

c) result me in faking it so nothing happens

I wanna go to the cinema! I wanna cut and dye my hair! I wanna swim in my pool! I wanna shop not because I had to but because I just wanna! I wanna decorate my room! I wanna eat roti canai on saturday mornings! I wanna lie down on my bed and not think whether I should do addmaths or chemistry or emo because my friend decided to 'have fun'. I don't wanna be emo anymore! I'm so sick of being emo because of assholes! AND I WANNA QUIT ADDMATHS TUITION.

There.

Things to do after spm:
- get PMR certificate
- get UPU code

There. So, I won't forget.

Spm, when will you be over?

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