the end of time

Hey, I feel somewhat sad. This morning, I went to my addmath tuition - initially feeling rather frustrated that I have to go to a tuition on a weekend for freaking 4 hours. However, then, I felt rather sad - this is it, people. The end for everything high school. This Tuesday, we are going to receive our year-end school magazine. Part of me feel extremely hyped but when it comes down to it, I feel really sad.

School is weird. I don't hate school but I hate some of the things I have to go through in school. For starters - anal prefects. Ok, some prefects are anal. Calm down, people. haha. Then, crazy-ass teachers - Miss Ruth etc. Haha. I definitely WILL NOT miss her once this is over. Pointless homework - Modmaths homework that I always fail to finish. And loads of other stuff.

The weird thing is whenever I find myself walking around the school compound - I feel safe, completely at ease and at home - but I'm practically surrounded by strangers! Especially when I come across some form fivers that I don't recognize! It's like, who is this kid? omg, he's form five? hell! i didn't know that! I feel rather shocked that after 5 years in school, I still don't know some people in my form. Tsk tsk tsk...

The saddest thing is parting with somebody you spent so much time with. I am definitely gonna miss some of the teachers. Mr. Jacob - if you never got taught by him or managed to be in contact with him in one way or another - YOU ARE THE SADDEST SOD IN THE WHOLE ENTIRE WORLD. I have never - NEVER - met any teacher any more dedicated and caring as Mr. Jacob. He makes kids want to learn and be in class.

Man, I love the guy! Especially after the camping trip to FRIM. We had this activity where we have to hike a long stretch before reaching our destination. And basically my unhealthy self was dying to complete it. Plus, I am asthmathic. In the end, it was me, Mr. J, and some others. Mr. Jacob talked and even sang just to take my mind off things. We talked about Da Vince Code the movie ( I told him that they should've picked a hotter actor than Tom Hanks), those record books about class behaviour (I told him it'll be an easier job if he just tick everyone as excellent students), and he told me about when he was a kid, he had asthma but lost it when he participated in running. He is the only school teacher that I have let my guard down and be myself rather than a just robotic student.

And Pn. Sunita. Honestly, up to the moment we visited her after her operation, I've always thought that she was indifferent towards me. I mean, I don't blame her. Usually with teachers, I become invisible - voluntarily. And she always catch me daydreaming! haha. Hey, Biology can be so boring sometimes, ok. I don't know how many times she purposely called me up in class to answer some question that I have not been paying attention to. Heck, once she referred me as 'the girl behind my darling' - darling is Nicolette, by the way. So, I didn't think she would even know my name. Then, when we visited her at her house, she complimented me so much that I was speechless. I'm like, is she serious? are we still talking about the same atikah here? bzuh! She said I was confident, caring, patient and countless others that flew above my head. So yeah, till now, I can't believe she have so much good thoughts about me. Makes me feel rather guilty about the times I didn't pay attention! haha.

hmmm.. I feel like crying right now. Gah. This week is the last week of school. FOREVER. Spm doesn't count!!

I'm gonna go crazy with my camera. Yes, I will.

-- GAH I AM SO SAD