alex who?

fucked. so fucked.

aarrgghh. can somebody please send me to anger management classes? i think i need them. anyhue, shafiq once told me there's two types of people - the manager who screams at everyone everyday - then there's the clerk who one day brings a gun and kills everybody.

i am the clerk. haha. are you scared now? are you? ARE YAH?

i had a talk with mahfuz today. i always turn to him when aiman and shafiq went speechless on me. apparently, they (aiman/shafiq/mahfuz) have so many things to comment about me these days. man, it makes me wonder had i suddenly gone complicated or i've been like these for ages. anyway, mahfuz just tells it as it is, you know. he's not a very good liar. or maybe he's so good at it, people don't think he can lie! a guy once told me that he thinks i can never lie... i am very proud of my achievement...

oh yeah, mahfuz. one of the things i like about him is that he's pretty honest. and i can count on him to tell me the most insane world-shattering of truths. maybe because i never get mad at him? and besides, he's good at it. i mean, the talking. guys guys guys - all girls want is you to LISTEN and SHUT UP. and i am congratulating mahfuz for mastering in it because not many guys can manage it.

prom. don't start with me about prom. prom doesn't even sound like it's gonna be those fairy tale things. i'm always hoping things to go like in the movies. but it never does. i wonder if it will this time. but i doubt it. throughout this whole year, nothing has gone as planned.

i can't believe we talked for 10 minutes only. i should've stalled and brought up stupid subjects. but i didn't. because i am busy being online. so i can't talk. and we just talked, like, minutes ago. dang.

this post is so pointless....

-- i am hungry.