Physics Final Exam

"So... you're not gonna study Physics at all??"

Yes.

Ok, I got home early this evening, I was still feeling pretty down from my Chemistry. I have this huge feeling that I'm gonna fail it. You see, when it was the midterm exams, I was suddenly having this sudden flu attack, so I guess I failed my paper then because I was sick. This one? No excuse at all. Just plain unprepared.

There will be two Physics paper tomorrow. Only two and both HAD TO BE bloody physics paper. Yey. This calls for celebration. Bring out the fire crackers, folks. Ok, I'm seriously dropping my Physics. I even told my class teacher about it. And she gave me that face. The WHYDOYOUWANNADOTHAT? face but it's more of a Oh-you-wanna-do-what- ? face. So, I wasn't exactly pissed or agitated when she responded in that way. Though she said she's not sure if I can do that and something about my certificate not being full. So am I dropping it? Hell yeah. Can it be done? I have no idea. Pn. Loo doesn't give me much info about this dropping-subjects bizness. So, I'm more clueless than ever.

My sister was hopping mad when I told her I'm still gonna flip through my Physics book for tomorrow's exam. She was like 'GAWD. Why do you wanna do that?! You're gonna drop the subject and then you pegi pandai-pandai nak baca pasal fizik? You should read Sejarah or addmaths - the subjects you gonna care about!' She even tried to convince me to not go to school tomorrow. And how appealing that sounds, I'm still not sure. I never skipped an exam day before! What if I get in trouble?

Sister: So? They're not gonna care! You dapat paper exam next year kan? By the time you get your exam results, you dah start a whole new chapter dah! Buang mase je! TAKYAH PEGI.

Somehow I'm glad she's like that. I mean, ok, she's pretty enthusiastic, but at least she doesn't give me that WHYDOYOUWANNADOTHAT? look which kills me everytime. Even when my friends said the quote above, they gave me that look. And I could just feel the rollercoaster feel in my gut. I hate that look. Stop doing that. But somehow with my sister supporting me, it felt great. Because she gave me that been-there-done-that vibe, which really calms me down. She dropped her Chemistry while she was in Form 4. And she's doing fine. So I believe in her and I'm just so glad she's my sister at this moment.

Urgh. Tomorrow will be hard to face, I think. All I can think of is me facing the Physics paper with all these blank spaces. Man, even thinking of those blank spaces makes me sweat. I don't know what the hell Malaysia's education system did to me but not knowing the answers to those questions is gut-wrenching though it's gonna be pretty useless to me in the future.

Sister: Eyh, kalau you dapat A ke fail ke, they're not gonna care! You're gonna drop it - takde bezalah! TAKYAH PEGI.

I'm having cold sweat thinking over the blank spaces. Ugh.

-- Slowly becoming a PELAJAR BERMASALAH.