STUDY DAMMIT

I can't study. God, I can't study. Study? Study!

Ok, maybe it's my brain telling me that it's still far away but I don't want to fail again, do I? I'm so jealous of the people who can study on a daily basis and still have a life. I know two people who can do that : Shafiq and Diana.

We were in the PMR Lab 1 and since me and Diana didn't want to be the Loser table, we invited (more like stole) Shafiq from Miz's table. Then, they began to talk how they can't study as much as they wanted to... Am amazed that someone voluntarily studied EVERY FRIGGIN' DAY. Am shocked. Am very shocked. Am feeling guilty right now because today is a holiday and I have made zilch progress on my Physics.

I couldn't believe that they actually wanted to study - it's like studying is a part of their soul or something. Listening to their vigorous schedule, I felt like I'm the most stupid (and laziest) person on Earth. I couldn't even say anything because compared to them, I had loads more free time. And wasted it on Internet, downloading free music...

I can't help it that I have the most shortest attention span in the world. When I'm studying Physics, my brain suddenly drifted to other things...For example, I just realised that I have been singing a Linkin Park song in my head and minutes later, thinking if I should call my mom and ask her to buy me a Japanese kimono robe (not the real thing. I want the robe that people use for sleeping and stuff like that).

Argh! Need to focus. Need to focus. See what I mean by saying I'm not doing much?! I AM NOT DOING MUCH. MUST DO SOMETHING. MUST DO SOMETHING FAST. But what?? Hmmm.. Diana has an Art Class and a Guitar class and a bunch of other things... Guitar - nope, bad idea. Art Class - need to ask parents first... But firstly, I want to do something I like. Not something that I just grabbed in the last minute. Too bad I'm not passionate in anything. I need to find my passion. Obviously, studying is not it.

Gah, need to study now!

STUDY! STUDY! STUDY!

-- I was temporarily hooked on this anime tv show called 'Love Hina'. Damn funny. It's my friend's vcd though. Finished watching it and glad it's over. I can get back to my normal life now.