Don't I just love making observations in the middle of the night? It wasn't exactly at midnight but at 10, my head is feeling kinda heavy. But I'm suspecting that it's this Addmaths book I just bought. The teacher told us to do it - optional. But... most likely, we have to do it. Pish! Addmaths isn't confusing, it's just plain rubbish. I mean sometimes you don't even know what they're trying to tell you to do. Unlike modern maths, you actually get all panicky and confused and all. But Addmaths? Just blank. It's like watching tv without switching it on, and waiting for some cheap commercial trying to tell us about their 'badan yg ramping,'. Seriously, this is a load of crap. I didn't do it of course. Just did the first question and that's it. I'M DOOMED.

Anyhue, this is not what I'm going to talk about! The thing is - I've been thinking:

Do I look intimidating to you? I mean seriously. Do I? Or is it that I talk in a voice so low that people just can't hear me? Observe -

Dude1: Oh hey, Girl1, where do you get that book?
Girl1: Well....hmmm...hmmm....HMMMMM...
Me: Oh - all you need to do is just go to Pn.Lady and ask for it.
Dude1: *stares blankly*
Girl1: HMMMM.....
Me: Er....
Girl1: I think you should go to the teacher.
Dude1:Oh, ok, thanks.
Me: PISH!

Yep. It sucks. Because sometimes you just want to be friendly, ok. So, I'm thinking that my voice is too low. But then, I got this excerpt from Miz's Myspace thingy that says something like this : Oh, don't mind Atikah. She doesn't bite. Much.

Excuse moi! I do not BITE. I like things that are cooked and bacteria-free, thank you very much. And the recent bitch-fight I've been in was... none! Dude! You are so giving the wrong information to people here! Now, all they think is I'm some kind of snarky bitch who won't talk to people because I'm too high-class or something. DUH NO. I am not! I'm not intimadating at all. I get intimadated by people. Not vice-versa. I feel like waving banners sometimes.

I mean ok, I have mood swings, aight? There are just times when I don't feel like smiling and be all perky when I'm obviously feeling crappy. And I am not a morning person. Most likely, I feel like screaming in the middle of the school ground. So, I'm guessing I'm like that. And I don't smile to strangers either. I don't know why. I just don't. The muscles in my mouth just wouldn't move to make a smile. Bummer me. Talking to guys can be so tiring sometimes. Because, when I suddenly get friendly, they'd give me this look - a sort of bored and dreamy face - that says = 'Oh wait... You exist?'

NYAH!!! Ok, ok, paranoia. Shouldn't get all hyped about it or anything. But, people, just tell me ok. I'm getting kinda confused 'ere. Gg, Tasnim and whoever lurking behind the computer screen - COMMENT ON THIS. I know you're there! Just type whatever you think? Aight? Ok, leavin'!

-- I can be so paranoid at times. Maybe I should get my own Prozac.