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I am trying to psyche my brain that SCHOOL IS ON MONDAY. Yes, you got that right, ladies and gents. Me, who have not stepped on the school ground for two months, is going back to school.

School.Schooool. Sccchhhooooollll.... Nope, it's not getting in my head.

I just can't believe it. Monday? It's less than a week! This - is - not - good. I DON'T WANT TO GO TO SCHOOL. NOBODY CAN MAKE ME GO TO SCHOOL. God, this sucks. This SUCKS. After all this time, I have been taking my holidays for granted... it's all coming to an end! Not to mention that I have to wake up in the morning again. Pish! School. Pish! Whoever - and I mean WHOEVER - is excited to go back to school will be skewered with a toothbrush!

I'm not excited going back to school. I'm still using my old bagpack since it's black thus making it UBERCOOL. Same pencilbox, too. Though now I got a new wallet so that's alright. I'm still using my old stuff like baju kurung and tudung and stuff. I gotta sew my bagpack later. It's kinda torn near its zipper. But it's still ubercool! Who am I kidding?

Am I nervous about tomorrow since I'm getting my PMR results? A little. Not yet a wreck but almost there. I could just feel butterflies warming up in my stomach. My hands are getting cold. And I keep saying 'OK.' in my head. Just wait! When I reach the school, I'll be a blubbering maniac. Couldn't think straight and probably even start talking to myself. Walking in circles. Being shrill. You know the drill.

And do not freak if I burst into tears when I get my results. Bad results - good results. I'll just explode. Just like I did when I went to get my UPSR results. It was the stupidest reflex thing I had ever done. Because when people see me, they automatically thought the worse thing while I'm trying to explain between breathing and crying. STUPID STUPID.... STUPID! I'll try not to do it again - if I can control it, that is.

So, anyway, good luck to all of you peeps who is going to go through this tomorrow. Pray for me darlings!

-- Listening to Butterfinger's 'Silk'. It's weird because I was so psyche about this song at early 2004... It felt like ages ago...