New Year's Eve

Whoa. 2005 already? There is no way I could remind myself to write 2005 when writing dates. I used to think it was 2003 when I write down my homework. Well, you can't really blame me, can you? That was one heck of a year. But I'm leaving 2004 so I'm talking about that now.

This year is less nutsy than 2003, that's for sure. One thing that I learned is that there is no point of whining and complaining about new things. I used to whine a lot when I found out my class was going to be in Pulau Ketam, my friends are a bit separated by location and my class teacher is a cold blood-sucking dictator. But it's not like we can magically turn back time or anything. Like Erik said, 'It's the point of no return,'. So, I'm going to stop that. No more complaining. And if I did, hit me. Hard.

For this year, I learnt a lot. Luckily, it's not one of those in-your-face sort of realisation. I wouldn't survive that. I realise I'm not such a wreck after all. Heh. I used to think I'm the biggest dork in the world. Ok, probably, I'm still am but I just don't care anymore. I mean, I have, my good points and also my bad points. Hey, I'm a teenager, it's my time to shine, baby! hahahahah. Righty... People still surprises me. At first, you think you know that person even though you're not close - the next thing, you know nothing! It's a complete body-blow sometimes when you get to know somebody. They are just so different than what you expect.

I want to stop stereotyping people. I think it's a habit of mine. You see a decent tudung-ed malay girl and sometimes, subconciously, you think she's the type of person who strive to get straight A's, a good career and a husband. Not true. The bad thing about clothes are that a piece of fabric can change your outlook completely. Maybe in school, she wears a tudung but outside school she wears provocatively? Who knows, eh? So, I got to stop stereotyping because I will really never know from a first impression.

In this year, I realised that guys are kinda feminine - in a way. Don't lie! It's not that its bad. It's actually pretty good and sort of refreshing. They watch soap operas. You know, O.C., Winter Sonata, and all those Spanish ones. I am probably the only girl in the world who has access to watch the O.C. but doens't watch it. I just don't like tv shows to control my head. And besides, I don't usually watch other channels besides Astro so it's kinda hard to remember. It's so cool! I don't get it guys who tried to keep their ego up. I like them better when they're the O.C.-addict, Gareth-Gates-loving people. Seems more human to me. Alright, alright, no stereotyping.

One more thing I learnt is that friends aren't forever. They aren't. You think that all of your friends will be there until you're ripe and wrinkly? Nope. Some of them probably don't even last a month. And you can't really blame them if they suddenly keeping secrets from you. They have their own lives - the one where you're not in it. People keep secrets all the time. If she really wants to tell you, she will. Sometimes, you just want to go up to her and say 'Ok, spill it, woman!'. But you can't.

Ok, I think that's it. Here's to a new whole year! Cheers!