My Very First Ventolin

Looking at the title, Ventolin is actually the puff thingy asthma patients use. Its the puff thing - the inhaler - the handheld drug machine! Hahahah! I think I love it. Yeah... I have a sadistic mind. So?! Sue me! But when I got it, I feel kinda proud... Weird... The nurse said I have to use it only in four hours stretches. If not, I'll be overdosed. Interesting... Wanna see me get high?!

Nah, I don't want to die from drug overdose anyway. So, I'll just do it once or twice. It's kinda pahit. And even though you used it hours ago, you still can taste it on your tongue. But I think I'm used to it. From all the pills my mum gave me. So, right now, I'm okay.

It's 1 o'clock in the morning right now and me mum and me dad are supposed to have our sahur. At some mamak stall. But none of them are making a move! Sleeping, I mean. Guess I have to drag them. Well, hey! It's their idea ok! My maid does not cook good food in the morning, you can trust me on that. Mee goreng sounds nice...

Anyway, I watched the movie A Walk To Remember and I LOVE IT. I never watched that movie before and when I found myself home alone, I guess, heck, why not? So I watched it and loving every minute of it! It's just so 'Awwwww!!!', you know? Ah well, being hormonal. The only big whoop in that movie is my parents got home in the middle part. At first, my mum was complaining and then when it was nearing to the end, she was crying. Oh gee wheez, who said it was boring again? I was about to but the thing is I don't cry in front of my parents. I mean sure if somebody died or something but some teenage lovin'?! Not me, amigo! So I just have to swallow it. And gg, IT IS NORMAL. There are some people like that ok! I just don't want them to think I'm some kind of a hormonal freak. That's all.

I love the song Mandy Moore sang 'Only Hope'. It is so the bestest of the best! I downloaded it and been listening to it for the millionth time! Now I feel like burning a CD with all the great piano love songs there is. You see, I don't learn them in my piano lessons. I'm still in the kindergarten-ish and anthems phase. So I'm actually dying to play a one good love song. But I only got two piano songs which is :

- Only Hope by Mandy Moore
- What Dreams Are Made Of by Hilary Duff and some guy

I know, I know - is Atikah on crack? Look at all these love songs?! Yes, Atikah is on crack. The Ventolin remember?!

-- WANNA SEE ME GET HIGH?!