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Heyp. It's 12 something in the morning and I have a so-called agama test tomorrow. It isn't something big or anything, just a test. It won't even be on the record book or anything. Heh, crap still. I got so many homeworks - from tuitions and crash course and whatnots. And guess what? I'm suppose to do a practical and theory exam soon. On my piano that is. NERVE-WRECKING.

I hate playing in front of people! They all have this face on, ya know. It's like - at first, they're all excited and stuff because you're gonna play the goddamn piano and stuff but when they found out you're doing an easy piece - you know, the circus-y one - they got bored and look somewhere else. They don't even bother to say anything to you after that. Not even 'Hey, that's pretty cool'. It's like somebody told them that if somebody know how to play piano he must be so bloody good that it's illegal to be that good. Even though he's just in Grade 1. What crap.

Tis' is why, I hate people who thinks playing the piano is a walk in the park. They don't know the difference between anything. You just don't press those keys for fun, ya know. They have the bloody fingers thing. My teacher would shriek if I press with the wrong finger and it didn't change the sound one bit. And the rhythm - goddamnit! It gives that word a whole new meaning. If you press the right key, it doesn't matter - if it isn't on the goddamn time. And to hell the countings. How can you tell how a note last twice as long as usual?? And it differs if you play softly or loudly or slowly or fastly or what crap you do. Most kids I heard who play the piano because their parents want them to, end up hating it. Two of them are my friends.

And I actually wanted to play it in the first place. So, you can imagine the hatred those people have. More than you can imagine. I heard this one lady who stop playing it altogether because her mom used to force her to play the piano in front of her guests. My mum doesn't do that - she just force me to play her the song she likes to her. And it's this one bloody song that I played so much, it's etched to my brain. And I'm hating it.

Now guitar, that's easy. I tried it and it ain't too hard. But there are just something wrong with my fingers. I don't know, I just can't press it down. Anyway, my friend learned it for a year or so and she's already creating her own songs. Her own songs!! I learned it for a year now and I still think I can't play hack! Once, a particular song called 'Frankie and Johnny' cut me into little pieces! I know the title is deceiving but this are the type that had lots of weird notes on them. Weird combination and weird timing and single notes that confuse the hell out of yah. I hate those type. Especially if they're the fast type. Crap I tell you! CRAP!

Yes, yes, I know what're you're gonna say. I'm a friggin' psychic. You guys gonna tell me how easy actually piano is. How marvellous it is if we can just love to play it and have passion for it. How those gruelling music sheets are actually easy but my hatred for it blinded my eyes....Strictly for the nutheads. Look, I'm not dissing you or anything. I'm just trying to clear up the misconception you guys got over this. Hell, I was once like y'all - thought I could play anything in a week. But it isn't true. And I heard people trying to cheer me up too many a dozen, If you're in Grade 8 in piano, I would listen to you. But if you don't then give it up, mate.

-- This is after I tried to make sense a music sheet that is just too 'classical' to decipher.