Fuzzy Feeling

I, of all people, have a fuzzy feeling deep in my tummy. Fuzz-ey.

I just did a solat hajat at my school a few hours ago. I thought it would be boring and long and you know, practically murderous in a droning way. But it wasn't. It was - maybe this sounds a bit weird - great. It has been a long time since I felt happy for a simple thing like a 'gathering' like this. The last time I felt that way was probably the time I ran in the rain. And that was weeks ago, I think. Anyway, it left me a great weird feeling. Isn't life great in a simple way?

Came to school just minutes before Maghrib. Buka and all - ate only two small pieces of keropok lekor. Two!! Then, I met Gg and Farisa at the surau's stairs thingy. Farisa was eating a chocolate donut... Drool... Then, I went inside and met with Hamiza and Diana. Solat Maghrib and all and read the yasin and shtuff. Gg looked so cute in telekung! She was wondering why I was smiling at her. Then, the ustaz began to talk about religion and stuff. And why we had to respect our parents and never do anything bad. And other than that, always always always do what Allah told us to do. Yep, major guilt trip. Let's just say I'm not as innocent as I tend to look.

So when everything was over, we salam-ed each other. Everybody was bawling! Ok, maybe not everybody. Farisa - surprisingly - wasn't. I thought she would be the first one to be all weepy and stuff. She's kinda emotional in a way. Gg did - no surprise there. And Hamiza - almost. Me - maybe a minute but it was over before I knew it. The thing is I felt happy. How can you cry when you're at peace? I hugged a few of them. I hugged Gg who was at that time, very pink in the face. I hugged Miza because she looks like she's going to burst in tears. Now, at that particular moment, I felt like crying. There she was, shaking with emotion in my arms and I swear I would have cried then. When you're hugging a person who is crying or going to, you can't help it to cry with him/her. But I went and salam-ed other ppl and the feeling of wanting to cry died instantly. Hugged Farisa, which was not really a big deal since we hugged each other a lot. And I hugged Ainul! She was practically suffocated and screamed her lungs out! HAHAHAHAHAHAH!

Then, went to eat. It was a different view at that time. Everyone was wearing their baju kurung and baju raya, it looked so different! The guys were in their baju Melayu and the girls with tudung and stuff. We greeted each other and wished good luck. And even apologising to each other! Like it's raya already! I ate and was wolfing down my nasi! I was so hungry, you just don't know! Then, Diana started to cry. Don't ask me - I don't get it either. I guess suddenly I said something about being surprised loudly and Gg got all mad at me. Heh, sorry guys. Then, Diana disappeared and Gg and Hamiza and Farisa was running all over the place. Shameen was complaining next to me about not knowing things. Confusion in 10 minutes. Strange... And then I saw Saufi and Zakwan. I was thinking about going up to them. Haven't seen them for days.

When I actually did finished my nasi and going all over the place asking for Diana, I went to the guys. Gg did first and said good luck. Saufi wasn't there though. Zakwan was there and I said sorry if I did anything wrong and wished him good luck. You know what he said? 'You pestered me for a whole year and that is all you can say??'

Like hello! What else am I suppose to say? Then, we parted and met up with Hakim a.k.a. Atikah's cousin. Farisa was being scream-y again and I have to yell at her to shut her up. Heheh. Then I went home and waved goodbye to Farisa and Shameen and Shahrul. The end.

Actually I want to meet with a few more people. I have the feeling I'm not going to meet them for a long time. I haven't said good luck to many people. I haven't said it Fawwaz - I only got to say a few words to him before Farisa dragged me away. And then there is Shahrul, Salam, Nasriff, Aizat, Fandi, Diyana, Adila, Saufi and some other peoplelah. I should have met Saufi earlier. I need to apologise! I have been such an ass towards him this year! Seriously. I have insulted him many times but it doesn't mean he didn't, too. I just want to make it clear that I don't actually hate him and you know, whatever whateverlah. I guess that is why I have been nice to him for the past couple of days - guilty. Friends?

This is what I love. Casual things that bring people together. We don't have to go to the movies or have a vava-voom party to have fun. Besides, those kind of gatherings - there is always something that ruins it. Just something. And I definitely definitely DEFINITELY love you guys. That's right.

I love you

I will be forever yours.

-- Makes you think twice about moving schools. Probably.