Dependant?!

Disorder	Rating
Paranoid:	Moderate
Schizoid:	Low
Schizotypal:	High
Antisocial:	Low
Borderline:	Moderate
Histrionic:	High
Narcissistic:	Moderate
Avoidant:	Very High
Dependent:	Very High
Obsessive-Compulsive:	High
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Dependant and Avoidant?? And also an attention sucker! I can't be this bad?! I am Atikah! I am not this horrid! And yes I am a little bit paranoid. Freaky isn't it? And I have a disease of not trusting people....even my loved ones....

It's really hard for me to trust people unless I really know that person. I mean really know them that I would drop dead if they suddenly act beyond their characters. Such people is Miz, Fari Fari and my double E's and G's (and that is a person's name!) and not to forget Ainul... She makes me laugh! It's not that I don't trust them. I fear that I will hurt their feelings if I ever crossed their line. And I do not want to hurt my feelings if they crossed my line. So really, if you didn't know me, you wouldn't know I'm such a cautious person in the first place. Behind those crazy antics, my mind flashed reminding me my every move. Every single move. From all my sarcastic remarks to every shy smiles I gave. Every single thing.

Except when I laugh. That's when everything is fine. My world just fade away into a merry fair thing. That's why I love people who can make me laugh. The voice in my head spun away. Laughing is the best medicine. See how dependant I am? I have to depend on laugh-inducing things just to be happy. In a way, I am paranoid after all..